I just wanted to share this real fast because it made me laugh!

This is our dog Molly stealing all the pillows on the couch!

My second funny was this.  I decided to try fertilaid because I have heard so much about it. I ordered it, one other vitamin and some ovulation strips. I checked the tracking and it said it arrived at our post office on base. I waited patiently for 2 days to get my package and finally decided to go check up on it yesterday.
It must have been a sign that I wrote about crazy things we try to get pregnant because I got told I am so sorry we have no idea where your package is but it says its here some here!
Have a Great Weekend!

I spent my morning thinking about all the crazy things I have tried in order to make any given month a success. I have browsed forums like crazy looking for that magical answer! Each and every time I read about some new method that supposedly works I tried it.
Have you found yourself taking Mucinex for a few days because its suppose to make the CM better? Sticking your legs up in the air for an hour just because gravity might make a difference? or how about taking all kinds of odd medications just because they promise to make you fertile? I have spent tons of money on lots of things just to get that BFN (negative pregnancy test) at the end of the long and dreaded two week wait.  I just wanted to share a couple of fertility  facts with you today.

Fact: Many women are placed on birth control pills (BCPs) because of medical conditions such as irregular periods, heavy periods, orendometriosis, all of which are associated with reduced fertility. For these women, the pill may actually preserve fertility. For women who use BCPs for contraception, the hormones are very quickly eliminated from the body and do not cause infertility.

Fact: There is no doubt that infertility causes stress, but the stress of an overcommitted lifestyle and poor health habits can adversely affect fertility as demonstrated in a number of medical studies.

Finally here are some common myths

Ovulation occurs on the day of the drop or the day of the rise in BBT.

This is one of the most common myths perpetuated by the medical community. In reality, the exact day of ovulation cannot be determined by the basal body temperature. Only about 10% of women even have a drop in basal temperature. And once the temperature has risen, it is virtually certain that the egg is already gone (assuming conception hadn’t occurred beforehand.) This is because an egg only lives 12-24 hours, and by the time the temperature has risen, the egg is no longer viable. Therefore, if a couple wants to achieve a pregnancy, the sign to focus on is not the basal temperature, but the cervical fluid.

A woman can get pregnant only one day per cycle.

While it is true that a human egg is only viable for 12 to 24 hours, a woman can actually get pregnant from an act of intercourse occurring anytime from about five days prior to ovulation to even occasionally two days after, for a total of about seven days.

The reason for this is that the sperm can survive up to five days inside the woman's reproductive tract, and a woman can release two or more eggs within a 24 hour period.. Hence, for all intents and purposes, a women can get pregnant for about one week per cycle.

Ovulation usually occurs on Day 14 of the cycle.

Probably the most widely held fertility myth is the notion that women always ovulate on Day 14 of their cycle. If this were indeed true, there would be virtually no need for birth control, since couples could simply avoid that one day. And scores of couples desiring a child would simply have intercourse on Day 14, and Bingo, get pregnant.

There are several serious consequences to the Day 14 fallacy:

    * Many unplanned pregnancies occur because couples think they are safe for unprotected intercourse on any day but Day 14.
    * Many couples who desire to get pregnant actually impede pregnancy by timing intercourse on Day 14, when, in reality, the woman may ovulate either much earlier or later than that one particular day.
    * Many diagnostic tests and therapies are performed at an inappropriate time in the woman’s cycle. These include infertility procedures such as post-coital tests and endometrial biopsies, as well as general health procedures such as mammograms and diaphragm fittings.
    * If a woman does get pregnant, the doctor’s office will usually utilize a "pregnancy wheel" to determine her due date. But this device assumes that women ovulate on Day 14, and therefore could be off by several weeks, leading physicians to perform diagnostic tests at inappropriate times (e.g. amniocentesis) or even induce labor before the baby is fully developed.

I am pretty sure this month was not successful and officially marks month 55 of TTC.  I was chatting with some friends last night and realized that people start to distance themselves once they all have children. It is almost like nobody wants to talk about infertility and they would prefer to just ignore it. I find it sad that at a time when a person struggling with infertility can most use someone to talk to is when those someone's have usually distanced themselves that it no longer feels right just calling them to tell them how you feel.
Please feel free to share anything you wish with me at anytime because I do understand.

Lucky Baby dust to all!
Silvia

I woke up this morning in tears. I had this sense of defeat like I am failing at being a woman. I am filled with such hope every month thinking that this will be the month for sure! I started feeling light cramping last night so I know that AF must be on her way.
I also realized that there is nobody I can reach out to here that understands this emotional journey. It is a topic so avoided! People just assume that we have chosen not to have any children but the truth is that we did not choose this. We want a child more then anything and our  hearts feel like there is  something missing.Our home is not filled with the laughter of a child.
We are both looking forward to our first official appointment at the Fertility Clinic but Nervous at the same time. I know that my weight will become a huge factor! I have struggled with it for a long time due to my thyroid disorder. I am at a loss of 35 pounds but it took me 15 months. I have 4 months before I am 40 and my odds of conceiving via IVF drop even further! I wanted to drop the last 20 pounds but I am realistic with a slowed metablism this is not going to happen.
I have  just had another set of labs drawn and we are awaiting the results of these. I am thankful that modern medicine can allow us a chance of having a child but saddened at the cost of it.
We have started a gofundme account which you can visit at this lnk.
HOPE

Please know that even a $1 donation will help us toward our ultimate goal of having a child. Our insurance covers none of the costs involved with  IVF. Our first appointment plus tests is going to cost us around $700.
We saved up to cover this but they actual cycles of IVF will be costly so we are hoping to find some people to help us cover the cost of medication.

I pray that I can help someone understand the process  of this journey including all the emotions involved. It is very hard to deal with each and every month

I have lost 7 pounds which is still not enough for the clinic we have chosen.

Bryan and I are currently eagerly awaiting the test results of my AMH. This is a test to help determine if you still have ovarian reserve.

We had our first session at Bourn Hall and I was quite put out by being told my BMI was to high . I understand that there are risks involved  if you are larger. I am confused by the BMI standards not being regulated worldwide. I looked it up and most clinics in the United States have a BMI limit of 35 for IVF and 38 for IUI.  The clinic here prefers  you to be at BMI 28-30 for IVF and the same for IUI. I know that this inceases your chance of success. I am battling a slowed down metabolism due to thyroid disorder and age.

I decided this week to try putting myself on a 1000 calorie diet until my appointment on 17 March.

This gives me 2 weeks to hopefully drop another 5 pounds.

I go to the gym every other day for 1-2 hours. I usually burn around 750 calories there.

I have had a lot of emotions to deal with this week and did well on food though. I realized that I wll be the only one in my circle of friends without a child by July. I will tell you that this Journey is a roller coaster of emotions. You figure well it is not going to happen but yet you still buy ovulation kits, pregnancy tests and whatever new fad is out there that can supposedly help you get pregnant. I sit there during the dreaded two week wait and analyze it all. I think ooh this might be a pregnancy feeling just to get smashed back down again when that dreaded AF shows her ugly face. (Aunt Flo) 

Have a lovely Sunday and I hope that none of you have to ever be on this horrid cycle of emotions.

Silvia

My blog is changing!
I wanted to share the journey and emotional roller coaster of dealing with infertility.My husband and I have been married for 12 years. 5 years ago we decided it is time for a baby but it seemed that God may have other plans for us.   It took 4 years for a Dr to finally take our case seriously and start the testing process. We both actually hoped they would find something wrong so we could fix it! The sad part is that every single test came back normal and they told me that my weight is causing the issue. I have a thyroid disorder and struggle with emotional eating. These two make weight a struggle for me.
Over the past 5 years I have had some extreme periods. There were ones that arrived 10 days late and the hospital said were implants that just did not stay where they were suppose to.  Infertility is a touchy subject for most and if you start to discuss it people will quickly move away. I am an extremely open person and when someone  tells oh it must be so nice not to worry about travelling with children , my answer will be I wish I knew how nice it is to travel with children.  I get upset when I see people act like they do not appreciate that which was given to them by God, A child the greatest gift! I know they probably do appreciate this and sometimes you can lose your tempers in public but remember that there are many of us who wish we could have a precious little one but we can not.
My journey started with learning numbers like CD(Cycle Day), FSH (hormone tests), OPK(Ovulation prediction Kits) and may more! You will be amazed at how many medical terms you can learn once you have something called unexplained infertility. My husband and I finally moved forward and had an appointment with a specialist. We both felt this specialist was a waste of time and money as all he did was suggest IVF and tell us where he thinks we should go. I did a ton of research and decided that we will go with a clinic in Cambridge.
I have the first intro to IVF with them on the 22nd of February and that is where we will schedule the first initial appointment and find out what tests they require as well as costs.
I will continue to post throughout this journey :)

Stay Happy and Lots of Lucky Sticky Baby Dust to all !

I just wanted to do a quick update. I am waiting for some wax to arrive that I ordered. Once it gets here I will continue to do scent reviews .
Happy Melting until my new stuff arrives <3