I have lost 7 pounds which is still not enough for the clinic we have chosen.

Bryan and I are currently eagerly awaiting the test results of my AMH. This is a test to help determine if you still have ovarian reserve.

We had our first session at Bourn Hall and I was quite put out by being told my BMI was to high . I understand that there are risks involved  if you are larger. I am confused by the BMI standards not being regulated worldwide. I looked it up and most clinics in the United States have a BMI limit of 35 for IVF and 38 for IUI.  The clinic here prefers  you to be at BMI 28-30 for IVF and the same for IUI. I know that this inceases your chance of success. I am battling a slowed down metabolism due to thyroid disorder and age.

I decided this week to try putting myself on a 1000 calorie diet until my appointment on 17 March.

This gives me 2 weeks to hopefully drop another 5 pounds.

I go to the gym every other day for 1-2 hours. I usually burn around 750 calories there.

I have had a lot of emotions to deal with this week and did well on food though. I realized that I wll be the only one in my circle of friends without a child by July. I will tell you that this Journey is a roller coaster of emotions. You figure well it is not going to happen but yet you still buy ovulation kits, pregnancy tests and whatever new fad is out there that can supposedly help you get pregnant. I sit there during the dreaded two week wait and analyze it all. I think ooh this might be a pregnancy feeling just to get smashed back down again when that dreaded AF shows her ugly face. (Aunt Flo) 

Have a lovely Sunday and I hope that none of you have to ever be on this horrid cycle of emotions.

Silvia