The past few days have gone better then most. I did not end up feeling like I was a failure for not being able to conceive. I know that IVF can be a touchy subject for some but if you have any questions in regards to the procedure or any tests I have had done I will gladly answer them from my experience.

Bryan just had the last of the blood tests done required for us to move forward with Bourn Hall Fertility Clinic. We are just trying to raise the rest of the money needed for the  medication and we can get started. I have been chatting with several wonderful ladies and realized that not everyone gets put on the same medication for IVF treatment. I am on a Progesteron Gel  and two different injections plus the final trigger shot. I hate needles so I am not sure how I will handle the shots but I have heard that it does not take very long to do and the needle is tiny as its in a injection pen. I do 12 doses of the first medication, 4 doses of the second and then the trigger shot. I will also be giving an IV that is suppose to aid with keeping the lining strong and if the treatment works I have to return for one every few weeks during the entire pregnancy. The IV will cost us a little over $400 per treatment.  We spent $550 so far for one appointment. The procedure will cost $4700 plus blastocyst fee if we have enough eggs, this fee at our clinic is about $1300. The first medications will cost us $2000 and then $1500 during the cycle for the IV. I really wish my family had time to save instead of having to try to raise the funds in other ways.
I am 39 and it took them almost 7 years to finally say you need to go with IVF and to find a doctor who  will work with us. I am thrilled but saddened that I only have a few months to come up with the money. If we had 12 months to save this would so not be a problem for us. I am a penny pincher and can give up a lot of things in this world for the best goal there is, to be a parent. I have been judged by many for raising the money using a crowd funder website. I know some thing well how can you afford a child if you need to raise this money? I do not have $9500 just sitting around right now and if our insurance just covered the medication there would be no need for us to try and come up with the money.

 I encourage everyone to get in touch with their senator's and get busy writing. There is a law  sitting around to give tax credit for IVF costs and some states are now adding the right to have a family act to their health insurance coverage. This act is amazing as it allows a family a cycle of IVF for free! I mean how wonderful is that to not put a family in financial straights and instead let the health insurance cover it. My husband and I are currently stationed in the United Kingdom and they offer IVF here to UK citizen's or those under NHS for free! I am not sure why this is not part of our health insurance . I mean there are rules of course like you can not have any children and such but it is still a wonderful thing.I do apologize for rambling on today but I just wanted to share some of these thoughts. I would love to hear your opinion's about offering the treatment through health insurance or at least covering the medication costs with a copayment. Please do not leave a rude comment and just your opinion. I know that it can be very hard to understand how a person feels that has been trying to have a child for years but has been unable to do so. We are an emotional bunch and try to hide it well but speaking from the heart one little thing someone says can send me into tears for no reason at all! I just start to think about what I want and how it is just not happening naturally due to medical issues but the past few days those thoughts have turned to joy at knowing that it is very possible that in 14 months or so I could be a mom! (depending on when we start the treatment)
Have a blessed week all! I need to stop rambling and get ready for my Volunteer job :-)