I do not get why I do this to myself every single month! I am sure many feel just like me. You have been trying for so long so every month you end up having faith that this time it worked for sure!  I was so positive and not even sure why but I just felt like this time it was it. I of course went out to the store and spent money buying pregnancy tests that I for some reason thought would show me two lines instead of one. I am sure you can guess that I got a BFN again! Month 57 here we come to try again.
I wish we had a diagnosis . I spend a lot of days pondering why the medical world says there is no reason why we can not get pregnant , yet we cant. I mean if all our labs our normal, my tube test was normal , then what is going on! The doctor did mention she things my uterine lining may not be able to support a pregnancy and that is where the rather unpleasant moments I get during my Mother Nature time come from.  Once we manage to get the money saved up  and if IVF is successful I will be getting an IV every month to keep my lining strong and keep future baby fugate in.
I did manage to drop another 3 pounds since our appointment at Bourn Hall. I am sticking to my walking and lower calories routine . I am not telling myself that I can not have something. Example I had chocolate crravings this weekend .. Hello those should have been my sign but nope still bought that darn pregnancy test anyway! I ended up buying me one of them small boxes of chocolates with only 4 pieces in it but it curbed my craving for chocolate .
I hope all is well and that someone got good news this past week. The past two weeks have been a bit stressful on my family but we are dealing with it.  Hope everyone has a great Monday!

Silvia